January Pledges

Whilst my resolutions for the year have been made, I think it will be useful to start my monthly pledged again to give me some slightly more manageable challenges to be getting on with.

So:

JANUARY PLEDGES

1: Make a meal plan every week, and base shopping lists around it.

2:Try at least one new recipe per week.

3:Go to the gym at least twice a week.

4: Half an hour o the Wii Fit every day.

5:Don't miss any more meetings.

6:WATER! DRINK IT!

7:I will allow myself a day off plan for my birthday but I will not let this become a birthMONTH. Back on track straight away.

8: TRACK EVERY DAY!!!! Even the binges. I need to keep doing it!

9:Make packed lunches rather than buying sandwiches at uni.

It's the end of the year as we know it!

Its resolution time!
Weight loss or otherwise there's nothing like achieving the challenges you set yourself.
SO here goes...

1: This year I will get to goal - the exact weight will be decided nearer the time as I do not yet know what I will feel happiest at, but it will be within my healthy BMI range.
2: I will complete at least the body test, if not training, on the Wii Fit Plus every day providing this is possible.
3: I will sell the clothes I have shrunk out of on ebay, or donate them to charity, as soon as they dont fit me. I wont fit them again - I will not have them hanging around the house.
4: I will pass my second year at uni with flying colours!
5: I will keep procrastination to an absolute minimum as regards Uni work, exercise, and housework.
6: I will reduce my reliance on asthma inhalers.
7: I will learn how to jog!
8: I will learn to budget and thus not live in my overdraft :s
9: I will be a good vegetarian and avoid all gelatine, animal rennet and other animal byproducts in food which I've become much to lazy about.
10: I will drink water. Lots of water. Everyday. No excuses.
11: I will keep this blog up!

Back with something akin to a vegeance!

I've been neglecting this blog of late, which is stupid because the primary reason I do it is for ME! (Not that I don't want you to like it too...)
I've had mad timetabling issues, with mad assessments and rehearsals and essays and everything and have just been so far away from teh track I couldn't even see it.
I've missed my last two WW meetings so I'm feeling very lost at sea at the moment.
Foods a bit bizarre at the moment because it's the end of term, I'm going home this weekend, and just need to use up what I've got left. Plannings gone a little out of the window. And by a little read 'It walked straight out of there'.
But now I have a plan.

I am going home on Sunday evening.
Monday shall be my clean slate.
I will write up a meal plan and go food shopping.
Everyday I will do one of my workout dvds, or if it's not too bitterly cold, go for a nice long walk.
I am aware that going to my brothers for xmas is going to be very hard- I will have little to no control over my food. However, he's pretty healthy, and vegetarian, so it shouldnt be too evil. I'll bring my paper tracker with me and do my best to write everything I eat down, even if it cant be accurately pointed.
Christmas day will be a total day off from tracking.
For the first time ever I'm celebrating xmas in a totally veggie household and will be having AWESOME FEAST TIMES.
I wont go overboard, but I'm not going to deny myself a proper treat.
Over the course of the holidays I will make a 2-4 week meal plan and shopping list for when I return to uni so I can get straight back on track.

That is a promise.
x

Weight watchers is a losing game...

The plan worked! To some extent, lost 1lb this week taking me down to 13st 7.5lb. Slowly slowly catchy monkey....

Very rough start to the week- suspect I'm going to have another video-nightmare in tomorrows class which wont be fun. Might just 'forget' to wear my glasses so all I see is a blur. A not particularly attractive blur...
But I did a bit better with tracking and I upped my excercise considerably so I clearly managed to make up for the emotion-binge-of-doom.
Similar plan this week:
1. TRACK. Bringing paper tracker with me to uni, but going to do my best to stick to meal plans so its easier to manage. If I track everything everyday I'm rewarding myself with BIG SHINY BRACELET OF JOY! watch these wrists...

2. MEAL PLANS. Make it. and actually STICK to it this week.

3. EXCERCISE. WILL try body combat. Going to wear my pedometer as often as possible.

4. VEGETABLES. Eat them.

Here goes everything....

One kick too far...

I was doing great with being back on track. Staying the same at WI had given me just enough of a kick up the bum to get myself in gear.
But then came class- we're doing a video-performance module at the moment, and I had to watch myself on screen. It made me cry. A lot. I managed not to actually cry in lesson but I was GUTTED and cried all the way home.
I looked atrocious.
Even if the camera adds 10lb I had to have had about 20 cameras on me to excuse the way I looked.
Watching it my mind was screaming'STOP EATING FATSO', but when I got in from class I was physically hungry and so told myself I could eat some tea and stay on track....
fool.
Pretty much devoured the cupboard.
I've said it before and I've said it again- I CANNOT KEEP SNACK FOODS IN THE HOUSE.
Its just too dangerous for me.
Trying hard to get back on track now.
Yet again, here's my line
_________________________________________________________________________
fresh start.
again.

Just keep tracking, Just keep tracking...

So far so good.
Got up early and went to the gym with L&L-my gym buddies. I feel SO much better for it! In the time I'd normally have slept in I have earned myself 7 activity points AND feel really rejuvenated and good. Annoyingly I've lost my gym membership card though so I need to do some MAJOR searching or I'll have to pay a tenner for a new one :(
Nice healthy breakfast, all tracked perfectly. So so far my weekly goals are going as follows:

"1. TRACK. I'm going to make sure I have a paper tracker with me at all times. This will get uploaded onto the computer at night for ease of referral to later, but I need some way of tracking while I'm in uni." I have my paper tracker in my bag for if I snack at uni, but so far today I've tracked everything online Including my excercise!

"2. MEAL PLANS. Haven't made one for ages. Needs to be done. Going to make one tonight."
Done and DONE! made one for the week last night which a)requires no shopping at all this week and b)which has been followed so far to the letter. Apart from a chocolate crepe- but that was pointed(2.5points SO nice), and just exchanged with some of the other snacks on my plan. I am IN CONTROL.

"3. EXCERCISE. Gym tomorrow morning. Going to try body combat on friday(which might well slay me- watch this space for detailed descriptions of my sweaty death). No more buses- I cant afford them. STOP USING THE BLOODY LIFT AT UNI!" Gymed it this morning, as described, and we're planning to go again tomorrow morning. So far so good.

"4. VEGETABLES. Eat them." Not had any yet today(what vegetable goes with blueberry cinnamon cereal?!) but having a big salad with my lunch and did have some fruit with breakfast. Clementines are GORGEOUS right now!

I'm back! WITH A VENGEANCE!

Renewed Vigour

is what I need a healthy dose of.
Hopefully I've just got it.
I stayed the same this week, making me still 13st 8.5lb.
I've been losing very small amounts for a few weeks now, which has been frustrating in more ways than one.
Firstly, it's obviously annoying not to be getting bigger losses than this (1.5lb off in 3 weeks is a bit dismal).
Secondly, and more importantly, I've really needed a kick up the bum, and haven't gotten it til now.
I've barely been tracking for weeks, and I used to be excellent at it. I've been eating way over points on rubbish food daily. But I was still, to a small extent, losing weight. So I carried on.
It's clearly beginning to catch up with me and it's time to CHANGE.

So here's my line
___________________________________________________________________________________

and here's my plan.

1. TRACK. I'm going to make sure I have a paper tracker with me at all times. This will get uploaded onto the computer at night for ease of referral to later, but I need some way of tracking while I'm in uni.

2. MEAL PLANS. Haven't made one for ages. Needs to be done. Going to make one tonight.

3. EXCERCISE. Gym tomorrow morning. Going to try body combat on friday(which might well slay me- watch this space for detailed descriptions of my sweaty death). No more buses- I cant afford them. STOP USING THE BLOODY LIFT AT UNI!

4. VEGETABLES. Eat them.


That should do the trick.

The Question of Identity

Light is bouncing off of some molecules onto your retinas.
You are looking at a collection of molecules, nothing more.
You've never seen them before.
Previous molecules may have closely resembled them, but these are the only ones which exist.
They didn't exist in this format 20 years ago, or yesterday, or at breakfast.
Nor will they exist in an hours time, or on Saturday, or in 76 years from now.
Oxygen is being drawn in and throughout these molecules, and processed into Carbon Dioxide, which is expelled.
These elements are only a part of the molecules you look at for a few seconds.
This "body" has varied in length and height. It has varied between 15 stone in weight.
Right now it is 2 stone lighter than it was 4 months ago.
These trousers don't fit anymore.
That extra body has been converted into kinetic energy and carbon dioxide and is now circulating the earth on it's own. It does not belong to these molecules anymore.
Due to the existence of synapses and neurotransmitters these molecules have made choices which when combined can be called a personality- though this is in no way personal- it is merely the product of genetics and societal interaction.
At any point over a 20 year span you may have called these molecules a
straight lesbian bisexual
middle class
left wing
atheist agnostic humanist buddhist wiccan pagan
actress ballerina archaeologist astronaut undergraduate
geek goth mosher hippie
baby child teenager young adult
female
short sighted asthmatic
claustrophobic agoraphobic arachnophobic acarophobic sociophobic
omnivore pescatarian vegetarian
blonde haired red haired pink haired purple haired green haired
short tall
shy outgoing
hopeful romantic broken hearted cynic
ticklish non-ticklish
person.
Call me what you will.


For one of my classes I had to create a 3 minute solo performance about what makes me 'me'.
Since I don't really believe in a 'self' this is what I came up with. I found my weight loss to be a very interesting part of the equation. Not just mentally, but physically I am two stone less of a person... 

Just a quick one...

then down the pub for a quick one ;)

Lost half a pound tonight but more excitingly...
SIZE 16 JEANS!
:D
for the first time since college....
woop woop!

Sorry I've not been around much lately- My course is VERY time consuming which makes things kinda tricksy. So here's the official catch-up post!

Current Weight:13st 9lb

And heres how I got on pledgewise:

October Pledges

1: Make a meal plan every week, and base shopping lists around it.- I wasn't too bad at this at the start of the month, and actually stuck to the plans for a while but it's all tailed off recently.

2:Try at least one new recipe per week.-Not happened yet. must try harder! I will learn how to make risotto.

3:Go to at least one excercise class a week.-Now quite one a week- but I HAVE been to spinning more than once, and I've been alright at getting down to the gym.

4:Keep losing weight at a steady rate of 1.5-2lbs a week-mainly small gains or 1lb losses.

5:Set regular times to go to the gym and stick to them.-ughhh nope.

6:WATER! DRINK IT!-epic fail. Just got addicted to 7 up free.

7:Halloween does NOT have to mean sugar.-actually pretty good on this count. It just happened to mean a lot of alcohol instead...

And, rather late, here are some for November...
NOVEMBER:
1:Meal Plans. Make them. Follow them.
2: TRACK EVERY DAY!!!! Even the binges. I need to keep doing it!
3:Learn to make risotto.And keep trying new recipes.
4:Make time for the gym- it IS a priority.
5: WATER. DRINK IT.
6:Make packed lunches rather than buying sandwiches at uni.


I really need to be back on track- I have been decidedly stupid of late and I really need a reminder of why I'm doing this.
-I may have lost over 2 stone so far but i am STILL massively overweight- theres a long way to go still and I need to remember that!
- I'm going down to Brighton for Christmas and I want to do some decent shopping in the lanes!!!!!

Must. Try. Harder.

On a completely unrelated sidenote, a couple of drops of rosewater tastes amazing with porridge.
rosewater on porridge

2 Stone Off!

YAYYYYYYYYYYY!
Lost 2.5lb this week, god knows how, maybe the spinning is finally kicking in.
Anyhow now I'm down to 13st 10lb. Exactly 2 stone off :)
Talking of spinning, 2nd time proved a little more manageable.
I think the music was slightly slower which made things easier, or it might just be the knowledge that I've gotten through one class alive, so I'll be able to survive another one. The music was better this time too, I managed a nice little Bon Jovi singalong whilst pedalling my legs off.
More of the power ballads please!

Weigh in, Weigh out, Weigh it all about...

Been a bit manic with assessments so haven't gotten round to blogging for a while.
Last week I lost 1lb which was fine and dandy. This week however I was quitting evil toxicity and was just eating shit to distract myself. Not good. Gained 1.5lbs.
WEIGHT:13st12.5lb
ARMS:havent measured. cant find tape measure.....
etc.
BMI:34

This weeks meeting was about planning around parties- which was very apt as i then went straight on to my friends party! At which I had a great time WITHOUT DRINKING! Breakthrough :D

Spinning to my grave...

Mmm Sweaty...

Why has no-one told me before how HARD spinning is?
That's the most excercise I think I've ever had in my life... seriously I can't remember the last time  I sweated that much.
And I couldn't even DO the standing up bits...
I nearly threw up.
I'm going back next week.

The Mindless Crazies

 I just got a big shot of them.
I was walking back from uni when I got a sudden urge to read a newspaper, so I popped into tesco's with this sole aim:get a newspaper.
This is how it went...

1. walk through doors, briefly glance around the store.
2. decide to check out the first aisle to see if there was any interesting fruit. There isn't.
3.walk down aisle with newspapers- the guardian isn't there. Pick up vogue instead.
4.keep walking down each aisle.
5. pick up little snowball cake things.
6. buy them.
7. eat half of them without actually thinking.
8. Get mental snapshot of what I'm doing.
9. mush up the box containing the remaining cakes.
10. put it in the bin.

I just ate at least 10 points which I really didn't have to spare without even thinking. They weren't even NICE, they were pretty vile.

Damn crazies.

WI Fun

My housemate S finally got along to a meeting with me, so I finally have a live-in buddy. Yay!
We had a temporary leader today who I really didn't like. She was talking a bit about her story and she mentioned her 'fat clothes' which she wore to 'fat club'. And then said "i bet you've all called it 'fat club' at some point". Ummmlemmethink NO I HAVEN'T. But thanks for destroying the confidence I've been slowly trying to rebuild. Thanks a whole bunch.
Anyways, this weeks stats:

WEIGHT:13st12lb(-26lbs so far, and finally broke into the 13's!)
ARMS:oh i give up, i keep forgetting which freckle to measure around!
BUST:41 Inches? god knows..im rubbish at this measuring malarkey
WAIST:33.5 inches
HIPS:45 Inches
THIGHS:25 Inches
BMI:34(down one! always good)

So far I've lost one of these:

YAYKOALAYAY!

or half of one of these:

YAYHAYBALEYAY!

plus one of these:

YAYGUINEAPIGYAY!

This weeks aim: Stick to points everyday, including eating my activity points. Lets see how that works.

I HAS TEH INTERNETZZZ

Woop yeh lolz omfg....

We FINALLY have got the internet in our uni house, though I'm having to plug in(wireless sucks dammit) so am lying on the living room carpet writing this.
I haven't done a proper stats update for a while so from the beginning to now, my stats have changed as follows:
At Start of WW:
WEIGHT:15st10lb
ARMS:16.5 Inches
BUST:42.5 Inches
WAIST:37 Inches
HIPS:48 Inches
THIGHS:30.5 Inches
BMI:39(obese)

Now:
WEIGHT:14st0.5lb(-23.5lbs)
ARMS:14 Inches(I asked a woman at my meeting how she measures thighs and arms accurately and she measures around prominent freckles- so I'm doing this now. The measurements might be slightly out of sync for now but from now on they'll be accurate. -2.5inches)
BUST:39.5 Inches(-3inches, down a cup size)
WAIST:34 Inches(-3inches)
HIPS:45 Inches(-3inches)
THIGHS:25.5 Inches(measuring by freckle, im sure i haven;t lost 5 inches off them)
BMI:35(still obese but -4)

So so far I've lost the weight of 3 newborn babies and a guinea pig! Or 1/10th of Arnold Schwarzenegger.
I lost 1.5lbs this week, but to be honest it could have gone either way. My household came down with the proverbial freshers flu so I threw pointing to the wind and just ate what made me feel better. Much of that included orange juice and protein-based foods, the rest of it was more junky. Ice-cream DOES help soothe a sore throat, but kinder eggs? Really? The little toy(the squirrel out of Ice Age by the way) did cheer me up, but the chocolate couldn't have been much use. I also had to deal with a couple of big party nights- the first big freshers night out in the town, and our housewarming/S's birthday party. I did veer off from the vodka and cokes somewhat but I guess I managed to dance enough to save the situation.

This week I'm back on gotten back on track pretty well. I've been for my induction at Fitness First which I love- going to get to a class as soon as I have time, hopefully this weekend. Next week I've got a personal trainer session to devise a proper workout program to help keep me on the straight and narrow.
 I've been walking everywhere as well, but my pedometer's broken(the battery fell out and I cant find it) so I don't know if I should be getting more activity points. I'm walking half an hour to uni and half an hour back again, half an hour to the gym and half an hour back again, and an hour to WW meetings, so my walking levels are way up compared to the summer...
Talking about my WW meeting, they seem to be different in Crewe. Back home everyone is very chatty and joins in a lot giving suggestions and the like, and every goal or achievement gets a round of applause! But here everyone seems to be silent and there isn't even a "well done" from everyone for successes. It's been like this at a couple of different meetings here. Maybe hebdeners are just a more effusive bunch.

Still, I got enough of an ego boost to tide me over for a fair while last night: A boy-a very good,old friend of mine- who I have liked on and off for about 9 years now told me that he's liked me for a year and do I "want to...meet up?".

Eeep!

Fun times ahead.

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September Pledge Results

1:Get as close to my 10% as possible-Completed!
2: Get as close to my 3rd silver 7 as possible-Completed!
3:Lose about 1.5lb a week-Lost 8lbs this month, so average of 2lbs a week. Even better!
4:Don't binge over freshers on food OR drink-not great on this one, but not drinking very often.
5:Don't let parties become excuses-also not great on this one. WIll really need to try hard over halloween time.
6:When back at uni, go swimming at LEAST 4 mornings a week.-Not happened, I'm rubbish at swimming, but I have increased my walking AND joined the gym so I'll count this as a victory.
7: Join WW meeting as SOON as I get to Uni. -Done and DONE!

So overall not a bad month.

(http://salamiatomi.deviantart.com/art/Pumpkin-Patch-11676444)

October Pledges

1: Make a meal plan every week, and base shopping lists around it.

2:Try at least one new recipe per week.

3:Go to at least one excercise class a week.

4:Keep losing weight at a steady rate of 1.5-2lbs a week.

5:Set regular times to go to the gym and stick to them.

6:WATER! DRINK IT!

7:Halloween does NOT have to mean sugar.

Freshers Frenzy

I'm back in the creweniverse once more!
I've been back for about a week and a half now and WW-wise it's not been smooth sailing.
I've been binging massively- buying too many snack foods and chocolate and eating them all rather than stickng to my meal plan. And the drinking...oohhhhh the drinking. Back home I'm not a heavy drinker at all, I can literally count the drinks I had over the summer, but back at uni it's a different matter entirely. Yes iI started on teh vodka and coke, but then I was offered wine, and then MORE vodka, and then I went and ate stupid amounts of junk. And then L went and made fairy cakes and iced me one with my name on it...and I couldn't NOT eat it. Then there was the beginning of freshers weekend, where I drank cider. Notl ight cider. Proper cider. And yet more vodka...and then there was the first BIG big night out with everyone last night. Where there were buy one get one free cocktails....the less said about them the better.
Anyway, yes, need to stop doing that. Chalk it up as a one off and move on.
Still on the upside I was thinking how much worse it could have been. If I hadn;t joined WW I would have been drinking cider and wine all the time, and binging on chinese and chips instead of just large amounts of low fat snacks. It could be so much worse than this.
My measuring tape hasn't been unpacked yet but my WI results for the last 2 meetings are
last week: -0.5lbs(the massive loss catching up with me)
this week: +0.5lbs, which isn't as bad as I thought it would be. In a strange way I wish I'd gained more so it would set me more of an example of how NOT to eat and drink. Grrr.
Nonetheless I've gotten my ass kicked back into gear by GIANT NSVs. Seeing everyone again after 3 months was wonderfful- last time I'd seen most of them I was 22lbs heavier- and they noticed! And spent all night telling me how gorgeous and healthy and happy I looked!!!!!!!
And naturally they asked how I've done it and I told them Weight Watchers...so they'll all be sneakily keeping an eye on me from now on- even if they don't let on! I know what they're like...
The support just continued marvelously when my housemate S moved in, and one of the first things she said was how much weight she'd gained this summer and that she wanted to join WW with me! So I get a live-in buddy!
L is being horribly painfully unsupportive however. She keeps making snide comments about WW and trying to persuade me to eat junk food and make cakes and things. When someone asked her "Don;t you think Florrie looks so great now" in response to how much I've lost so far she just gave a really nasty disbeliving look.
And L is otherswise my best friend, I love her to bits and she's wonderful about all sorts of other issues so I don;t know why she's acting so bitter about this. If it carries on I'm going to have serious words with her-something I'm VERY bad at doing.

I'm determined to get fully back on track this week and have something resembling a plan.
Today I bought the WW delicious cookbook- which has some gorgeous looking veggie recipes-a lot of which I can batch cook and then keep portions in the freezer for busy nights, so when I get home(no internet in the house yet- I'm sat in the library)I'm going to plan out the weeks meals in full, including some recipes from the book.
I'm also going to try and get down to the market tomorrow morning and buy a load of vegetables cheaply which I'm then going to make a MASSIVE match of 0-points soup for if I'm feeling at all bingey. I bought a set of 10 little round tupperware box things which are microwaveable and perfect sizes for soup, so they'll get frozen in those.
I also got myself an awesome portable salad container thing with a section in the lid for dressing(I'm thinking houmous or cottage cheese maybe) so I'll be having salad lunches lots and lots when I'm on campus. OMNOMNOM!

One final note- I bought a gorgeous dress today...In a size 14!
YAY ME!

Manic Day

 Today has been insanely busy and crazy. Last day at home before I'm off to the creweniverse for uni.
And therefore packing. Which I've STILL not finished(will I ever?). Why do I have so much bloody STUFF?
Anyhow, what with uni and getting sorted and such I'm not going to be on the internet v. much(if at all) for a little while(which means tracking ON PAPER...scary), and thus this is my last blog for a while.
Somehow in amongst the madness  today I've managed to make the apple meringue pie recipe from this months WW magazine. haven't tried any yet but it looks and smells DELICIOUS! I'll post pictures sometime:p
I've also dug out mums old bike(she never uses it) and after it gets checked over and cleaned up and such I'm going to start actually using it. I've not ridden a proper bike in years, just the stationary ones at the gym... Quite a challenge but I'm excited by it. Hopefully the weather will be kind for a while til I get used to it again.
So for the forseeable future I bid you farewell!
Wish me luck in staying on track back at uni!!!!!
xxxx

Back To School Report!

I was thinking about a meeting we had a week or so ago- we went through various subjects and how we could relate them to WW- p.e. for excercise, food tech for cooking, maths for points, english for tracking etc. and i was thinking we really ought to have school report type things for it to see how well we're doing in different'subjects' and how we can improve.
So heres a little game/excercise for everyone.
Fill in your own-give yourself a grade from A to F,and how you think you could improve over this next term...if it works i reckon we should do it every term!
Blog your's and please link me to them, I'd love to see how they work for you :D

Here's mine...

FLORRIE'S REPORT CARD:SEPTEMBER 09

P.E.(are you getting 30mins excercise everyday?)
Grade:C-
Plan:must try harder! will swim every other day at uni in addition to swing dance,walking and cycling.

English Lit:(Are you tracking everything?writing down everything you eat?)
Grade:B+
Plan:keep it up, make sure little nibbles are tracked as well as excercise

English Language:(are you using positive can-do language to motivate yourself?)
Grade:B
Plan:very positive already, but mustn't let minor setbacks get me down

Maths:(are you using up the right number of points per day?)
Grade:C+
Plan:tendency to binge and then cut back points. need to gain more excercise points so i can use these to offset my misdemeanours rather than starving myself for the rest of the week.

Science:(are you eating a balanced range from all the food groups?)
Grade:B
Plan: generally good, though tendency to rely of pre-packaged snacks and carbs if they're around. need to increase water consumption.

Food Tech:(are you experimenting with new recipes,foods and methods of cooking to ensure variety and enjoyment in your diet?)
Grade:C
Plan:started off well but in a bit of a rut. Will cook at least 1 new recipe a week as well as planning menu's in advance to ensure variety.


History:(Are you aware of your past habits so you can avoid gaining weight in the future? Do you read success stories for inspiration?)
Grade:A-
Plan:LOVE the success stories,I'm very aware of my habits and triggers, I just need to work harder on controlling them.

Art: (do you have before (and after?) photos for your eventual success story?)
Grade:A-
Plan:I have my before pics. I'm going to start doing pics every week so i can see gradual changes, and eventually put them together in a magical shrinking slideshow!

R.S.: (do you have faith in your ability to attain your goals?)
Grade:B
Plan:I do have faith! but I need to know that I can get myself back on track when I slip up, even it it's hard.

Textiles:(are you aware of clothes that suit your figure to give maximum positivity and confidence to you on your weight loss journey?)
Grade:B
Plan: I know exactly what suits me, though i need to stop buying clothes that I'm only going to fit for another few weeks!

ICT:(do you make full use of the esource technology? the tracker,the recipes,the stories,the chatrooms...)
Grade:B+
Plan: im addicted to esource! on chatrooms all the time! but could use the recipes etc. more.

Bye Bye Moped!

I did a little bit of maths and realised that 14st2lb(current weight) is 198lbs. I'M OUT OF THE 200S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I NO LONGER WEIGH AS MUCH AS A VESPA MOPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And I vow to ever do so again(unless they start making them much lighter than 200lbs.....
So I now weigh as much as a newborn giraffe plus a 40" Sony Bravia T.V.
Or the complete oxford english dictionary a 5 gallon bottle of water and a human head.


Much better.
Let's start by aiming to lose that extra head of mine....

This Weeks Stats:

WEIGHT:14st2lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:41 Inches
WAIST:35 Inches
HIPS:45.5 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:35(obese)

Back in the game!!!!!!

AWESOME WI!
I've been majorly off track these last few weeks, dealing with holiday in France enough so I could manage a tiny loss, and then a week of 'holiday mode thinking' which resulted in dreadful binge eating. I topped it all off with my week at towersey where I put on 2lb and was thoroughly miserable about it(though in hindsight it was right before TOTM so I was likely to be bloated and hormonal anyway).
Still, that was the kick I needed to get me back on track. I went and looked at my trackers from the first couple of weeks of WW and compared them to more recent ones, and did my best to follow them in habit. This meant:
a)way more fruit and veg, and filling food in general
b) more protein than carbs, i've been getting rather too reliant on sandwiches of late- NOT a good habit to get back into before uni starts.
c) less packaged snacky foods, not completely cut out, but being treated as treats as opposed to meal substitutes
d)cutting WAY way back on the diet coke.
And i stuck to it.
Excercise didnt really happen, but i got a damn good workout moving house, steep stairs and heavy boxes really take it out of you!

And I'm ecstatic to say it paid off, I'm well and truly back on track, with excellent results.
This week I weighed in at 14st2lb.
That's 6.5lbs off in ONE WEEK! Which the online tracker thing told me off for but I dont care!
It also took me to my 3rd silver 7!
and most excitingly
MY 10%!!!!

Which means so far I've lost 22lbs! That's the weight of 200 golf balls! or 22 guinea pigs!
Or a car tyre and a rack of babyback ribs!
or 2 housecats!
or TWENTY TWO WHOLE POUNDS OF UNNECESSARY MISERY!
I'm really happy :D
Bought myself a couple of little treats on amazon as a reward for getting back on track and an incentive to keep going- including the cardio for indie rockers dvd which I'm excited about, though I suspect it's gonna be pretty intense!
I can't find a measuring tape at the moment so I'll post measurements tomorrow.

And if ever I moan about falling off track and not knowing how to, or if I can, pull myself back again, please direct me to this post!

The Semi-Move

 

I was too tired to post about it yesterday, and do you know what? It was PHYSICALLY tired as opposed to sleepily/mentally tired. I think that's a state I need to feel more often.

My friend whose ground floor room we've been storing all our stuff in over the summer is planning on moving into the new house before I do. My other housemates( I shall call my flatmates D,L and S for slightly less confusion and slightly more anonymity than their names- they will feature plentifully over the next year or so I'm guessing). were saying they'd move my stuff up to my room so she could have her room back...but that made me feel guilty( I have a LOT of stuff and the stairs are insanely steep), and also a weird niggling bit of my brain was saying" no way you're going to do my excercise that doesnt really feel like excercise and needs to be done so I wont mind doing it, when I could do it instead".So I hotfooted it on over to the creweniverse and did some major lifting. So....Many....Boxes....

Knackering. But good workout :D

Whilst I was there I got a preview of the food-ness I will be living with however and it went like this...

(Watching telly)- cheese sandwiches are being eaten, I resist.

(L&D get back from the shops) L: who wants chocolate gateaux

Me: No thank you......well, I do WANT it...but I'm not going to have it...

L:why not?*looks puzzled*

Me *mumbling* weight watchers....

*L looks sceptical*

(not too long before I leave) D: are you staying for tea?

F:errm I might, what time are you having it?

*no actual answer given*

D: I was thinking of making pasta and pesto with some kind of garlic bread thing going on

Me: oh look at that It's time for my train....

This year is going to require planning of epic proportions and HUMOUNGOUS self-control.

wish me luck :s

Mixed Bag

Today's had good elements and bad ones.
The Good- I've come in 7 points under today! so I'm going to have an options cocoa and a weight watchers cookie and save up the rest.
The Bad-Excercise amounted to nothing today. Reading the time travellers Wife in bed- after a week with no matress, no duvet, and a pile of slightly damp jumpers for a pillow I couldn't drag myself out of bed! And then I couldn't find my pedometer.....
Ugh. Better luck tomorrow.

And whilst I'm going down this route...
The Ugly: My skin is SERIOUSLY showing the results of a week of bad eating. Worst spots I've had in years :( Anyone know any magic ways to get rid of them?

Now off to bed before I get tempted to eat any of the cold pasta in the kitchen....

Bad Monday, Bad Tuesday, Bad Wednesday...

No happy ending this week.
So I failed my "Towersey Trials" quite epicly.
I came home to a 2lb gain. My first gain with WW. And yes, I cried. I feel like shit.
So this weeks stats:
WEIGHT:14st8.5lb

I'm too depressed to measure the rest today.
So last post I said:

I'll be at Towersey for a week and i suspect running around like mad, PLUS theres ceilidhs every day!
NO EXCUSES!


So it turned out I was actually sitting for most of it- helping with crafts, manning the doors, watching concerts that were all seated... and I didn't make it to anywhere as many ceilidhs as planned. Thus activity this week pretty much equals nil. Or nowhere near enough to burn off the amount of food i ate. Yes I ate the food I brought along. All of it. And then there was also pick'n'mix, crisps,oreos,pizza,cheeseburgers,pasta...
Regrets.
Each one of them.
(except the pizza, that was bloody good)

I didn't drink this weekend which is a very good thing considering- the thought of having to manage 84 kids wielding scissors and glitterglue first thing in the morning with a hangover was too dreadful to bear.

Anyhow the time has come (the walrus said) to talk of many things. Of getting back on track this week and cabbages and things...
I need to shape up NOW. so this week-

• 10,000 steps a day, even if its raining, even if it means walking on the spot in front of the telly.
• 2 litres of water MINIMUM.
• No sandwiches, i need to cut down majorly on my bread consumption-bad habit of mine.

• Proper meals instead of constant snacking. If I need something between meals it will be fruit, veg or WW yoghurt.

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SEPTEMBER
Time to review august pledges and make dome new ones!

So august's were
1) get as close to my 10% as possible.(buggered that one up. I've gained a pound and a half since the start of the month)
2) Get as close to my 3rd silver 7 as possible.(ditto)
3) maintain if not lose whilst in France.(lost half a pound!)
4) Maintain if not lose whilst at Towersey Festival( FAIL. EPIC SHITTY FAIL.)
5) Drink my 2L water EVERY day THROUGHOUT the day.(not too good there,way too much diet coke, not enough water)
6) Not use escalators or Lifts unless I'm carrying huge amounts of luggage, or there's no other option(or I'm injured).(not bad at all actually)
7) Not binge over my brother's and my dad's birthdays.(giant fry up breakfast on my brothers, but then didn't eat all day, and was ok on my dads)

SEPTEMBER'S PLEDGES!
1:Get as close to my 10% as possible
2: Get as close to my 3rd silver 7 as possible
3:Lose about 1.5lb a week
4:Don't binge over freshers on food OR drink
5:Don't let parties become excuses
6:When back at uni, go swimming at LEAST 4 mornings a week.
7: Join WW meeting as SOON as I get to Uni.

Looks like I've just got to keep trying for that ever after...

Towersey Trials!

I've got to be in 5 and a half hours(why am I not sleepy? WHY?) to head of to Towersey folk festival where I'll be working in the kids festival with my best mate. And though I'm a total folk novice I'm determined to have fun and NOT gain. I will LOSE.
As ever planning is the key(if I convince myself i need to carry my weeks food on a coach every week I'll be onto a winner...)and I'm bringing:
WW Bread
Sugar Free jam(cherry, yum)
little tins of WW baked beans
a variety of vegetable soups
tangerines
granola/fruit bars
vodka
diet coke.
Sorted.
Thats basically what I took to Latitude and i managed to lose there.
I'll be at Towersey for a week and i suspect running around like mad, PLUS theres ceilidhs every day!
NO EXCUSES!
and on the no excuse note(it was tonights meetings theme)
I've just looked up my local swimming baths back at uni, and they are LITERALLY just around the corner from my house. Not even 5 minutes walk.
I don't have any choice in the matter really. I'm swimming every day.

And on the off chance you're at Towersey, look out for the steward who needs to lose a few(or a few squared..whatever) pounds, that's me :D

No Alarms and No surprises...

My Kick-In-The-Pants Week

Stayed the Same this week.
No surprises there. I've been awful this week, one bad day led to another.
I stocked up on healthy/WW snacks, only to eat the lot( lesson learned: i cant keep too much junk around).
I did no excercise til I realised i needed to do some damage limitation.
And I only just managed to pull it back enough to avoid a gain.
Gutted though I am no have my first non-losing week, I think it's for the best.
If I'd acted like I did this week and still lost weight, that would have led to much worse behaviour in future. This has given me the kick in the pants I needed to get back on track.
So here,exactly the same, are this weeks stats:


WEIGHT:14st6.5lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:40 Inches
WAIST:35.5 Inches
HIPS:47 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:36(obese)

Stepping Stones

I actually walked across those very stepping stones today! New route to the old favourite walking place...
So, I'm all planned out to be back on track in no time.
Got myself a WW buddy(the wonderful blueberries :D) and we've both decided to aim for 1.5lb loss a week til xmas. Which should add up to about 2 stone! I would LOVE to be in the 12's by xmas, and I will.

Off to Towersey festival at the crack of dawn on wednesday, and I'll be working there so I've got no excuse for lazing about! Got my food all planned out to bring with me- WW bread and sugar free jam, Baked beans and soup, tangerines, Smirnoff and diet coke, and some cereal bar type things.
Sorted.
I Lost At Latitude.
I Will Lose At Towersey!
I just have to take it one step at a time...

Damage Limitation

I suspect that due to stupid amounts of binging and extreme laziness that this week the scales will show me my first gain.
And WI is tomorrow so its time for some MAJOR damage limitation.
As soon as I've had my breakfast(oats,simmed milk,fruit) I'm going for a big long walk. And damn these grey skies. Any snacking today will be on fruit and veg. I WILL drink my 2L of water. I will not add salt to anything(thats one really abd habit 5've been getting myself into lately.)
Any tips on getting back ont rack would be much appreciated.

Muffin Tops without the Muffins

Bought myself some new jeans today, still 18's, but from Dorothy Perkins as opposed to Evans super stretchy ones....
I actually DID get into size 16s, and they were fine on the legs, fine on the bum, they even did up....but were very muffiny on the top :(

So not quite there yet.
Also was much cheered by teh fact that they had massive amounts of WW foods in poundland!
Multipacks of crisps, cake bar things,biscuits,cooking sauces, jam....
Stocked up now.
Just need to not eat all of it at once.
OOOOOH which reminds me- need to defrost the tofu, sweet and sour stir fry for tea tomorrow :D

Omnomnom...

Victories

Continuation of the "get back on that wagon" plan.
I'm going to list all the little(and big) weight loss victories I've achieved so far- I don't want them to have all been in vain.

1. Lost 17.5lb. That's a stone and a quarter. That's equivalent to the weight of an average gallon of paint, and an average newborn(or a very painty baby in other words). That's Awesome!
2. I went on holiday to France and actually managed to lose half a pound. As a vegetarian. In France. With a breakfast buffet that included UNLIMITED BRIOCHE.
3. Whilst in France I didn't order a single pudding. And they're just about the only form of french food I actually like. I had one spoonful (ok 2 spoonful's...but still) of my dad's creme brulee. And that was it.
4. Also whilst in France I was on the fourth floor of the hotel. And I took the stairs. Everytime when I wasn't carrying my luggage or completely knackered from a day walking around everywhere I took the stairs. Up AND down.
   
5. I went to Latitude festival and lost weight. And they have doughnut stalls. FRESH SUGARY DOUGHNUTS. AND I DIDN'T GO ANYWHERE NEAR THEM!!!!!!
6. At Latitude festival my friend offered her chips to me to share. I took one. I ate it. I enjoyed it. I left it at just that one.
7. My jeans have gotten so loose I had to actually buy a belt.
8. My skin is improving massively- to the point where I actually notice what difference different foods make to my skin( I.e. in france when i was eating greasy cheesy stuff the spots returned...with a vengeance.)
9. I WENT SWIMMING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN TWO YEARS. And didn't feel self conscious. I'm still awful at swimming mind you.
10. I have actually gotten rid of clothes because they were too big for me. And I know I'm not going to fit back into them ever again.
    
11. I now crave vegetables more than ever. Which is a good thing.
12. I've tried new fruit and veg- like butternut squash( OMNOMNOM) and passion fruit (OMNOMNOM).
13. Gotten much better at making varied meals from scratch!
14. Can now recognise portion sizes fairly accurately.
15. I'm currently taking in one of my swing dresses which has gotten too big for me( when I first bought it I had to take it out as it was too small).
16. Positive comments from many people saying I look much better/the weight loss is noticeable.
    
17. Learning how to say NO THANK YOU.

That's all I can think of right now.
But it's a very good start I think.

Cinema Self-Sabotage

I don't get why I'm doing this to myself. Seriously. I already went over my points by a considerable amount yesterday and now I've done it AGAIN!
I bought fucking maltesers. Not even a small bag- a giant one. And ate them all. And I didn't even enjoy them. And that wasn't all I ate... by a long shot.
I can't even begin to fathom why I'm doing this to myself.
I can't even SEE the wagon anymore it's gone so far past the horizon since I fell off it.
I need some major tough love anytime soon.
At the cinema I saw "The Ugly Truth"(great film, loved it). And the truth is that what I'm doing to myself is ugly, very, very ugly.
As whats-his-face said in it,
"It's called a Stair-Master. Get on it. Get skinny."

I need to do some of that.
Now.

I AM CHAMPION!

SOMEHOW I have managed to lose half a pound! WITH HOLIDAY OF DOOM FOOD! It's magic. Actual magic. so now I'm:
WEIGHT:14st6.5lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:40 Inches
WAIST:35.5 Inches
HIPS:47 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:36(obese)
Slowly slowly getting there. I am DIETSNAIL.

The upside of the dentist...

Or How to be relentlessly optimistic about absolutely everything.

Off to the dentists in a minute to have (yet another) filling done. Which sucks. I really really hate dentists.
BUT tuesday is weigh-in day, and if I've got a numb mouth I reckon that'll put me off eating for the rest of the day so WI will be as light as possible, though that still probably means a gain considering france and all....
and on that note- new pic of me in france. Nowhere near skinny. but getting SLIGHTLY closer.

Home Again, Home Again...

Jiggity Jig. I ate WAY too much in France and now feel like a pig....
veggie food just doesn't exist on a non-greasy cheesy basis.
The peaches were to die for though.
OMNOMNOMFORPEACHES!

Going on Kickstart as of tomorrow morning to get myself back on track. And gyming it like mad.
It's scary just how quickly i fell off the wagon when I was thinking 'It's ok...I'm on holiday"
Just. Not. Going. To. Happen.
________________________
That's my line. I'm starting fresh.

Ouch Ouchie OUCH!

These boots aren't made for walking...but that's just what they'll do!

For some reason I seemed to think that my converse would be appropriate footwear for a 2 and a half hour hike. Through the woods. Over rocks. Lots of rocks.
My feet are now in SHREDS.
ouuuchhhhhh. pedicure time methinks.
Was a gorgeous walk though- lovely and sunny, and I remembered my water this time!
And I even managed to get into town in time to book my haircut for tomorrow morning- lovely 30's chicago style hair here I come!

*sigh*

I'm on a roll!

Put you off your food yet?

Another good week and I've no IDEA how I've done it, felt like i've been eating rubbish...
but now:
WEIGHT:14st7lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:40 Inches
WAIST:35.5 Inches
HIPS:47 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:36(obese)

So I've lost 3 guinea pigs(please don;t call the RSPCA on me!)
or the weight on the average human brain!
And I now weigh as much as a Vespa Scooter and a human brain...
or 4 bales of hay and 3 guinea pigs
or a cinder block a newborn calf and the worlds largest ball of tape...
I could go on.

Coco avant...cocoa

If only I looked this good in a cut up man's suit...

My friend asked if I wanted to go to Leeds to see Coco avant Chanel(beautiful film), and i figured if i was gonna go to leeds I might as well do some shopping.
To really cement the motivational factor of the clothes, I've done what I always thought I'd never do and bought something to small so I can slim into it.
I have been lusting after this top forEVER, or for a few months at least, but I could only ever find it in a size 20- too big for my boobs, or a size 8-ridiculously small. Today I bought it in the size 8.
This time next year I will wear it.
And I will love it.

Also encountered a really hateful girl and her very camp friend in Miss Selfridge- she was rifling through a rack of skirts and saying- very loudly-
R.H.G: God they're all in FATTY sizes
V.C.F: suits you then
R.H.G:*hits him* yeah RIGHT. I'm a size 6.
*rifles some more*
R.H.G: I mean who is seriously a size(wait for it readers)........ 14!?!?!?!?!?
APPARENTLY SIZE 14 IS FAT!
It's not size 6 but seriously....'fatty sizes'?!?!?!?!
Oooooooh I wanted to hit her.

Hard.

Now I'm off to dye my hair.
If I can't be thin(yet) at least I'll be blonde(er)!

There she goes, my beautiful world...

I WILL fit back into this dress.

Done and Done. The clothes are PACKED *sob*.
My wardrobe looks thoroughly depleted(it all fits comfortably on one rail for a start). But I am confident this will work.
Looking through all the old clothes has reminded me of a lot of thinner happier memories, and I've rediscovered some GORGEOUS clothes I'd lost all hope of ever fitting into again.
And as such, I feel a hell of a lot more motivated.
I WILL fit in them.
If I lose just 1.5lbs a week then this time next year exactly, I should be at goal!
And I'll be wearing a whole new-old wardrobe :D
Clothes I'm especially looking forward to fitting into again:
-my tight rockabilly tattoo dress
-my green silk teadress
-my blue and white polkadot pencil skirt
- my FAVOURITE flowery teadress(nicest. dress.ever.)
-my Lia ink collectif dress
-My Moto jeans
-the perfect black top
-my chinese wrap dress
-my gothic lolita dress
-all my rockabilly stuff
AND EVERYTHING ELSE!
I'm so excited :p

Clothes Size Challenge

Considering one of my biggest motivations for losing weight is fitting better in my clothes, and being able to 'get away with' a wider range of styles, I've decided to try a little experiment.
I'm trying on every single item of clothing in my wardrobe(and trust me, there's a HELL of a lot in there).
Anything that's too big- unless it really is supposed to be baggy, - is going on eBay, or to a charity shop straight away. I will never fit into it again, I am determined.
Everything that's too small- whether its just slightly gaping at the buttons, not hanging quite right on me- or I physically can;t get into it- is being packed in bags, labeled by size.
Only the clothes which actually fit me right at THIS MOMENT in time are going back in the wardrobe.

Every week, on weigh in day,(providing I have time) I will try on the things in my wardrobe. If they've gotten too big, they're going.
I will also try on everything in the bag of the largest size(say if my bags range from size 8 to size 18 I will try everything in the size 18 bag). Anything that fits can go in the wardrobe.
Hopefully this will motivate me in several ways:

1. I get sick of wearing the same clothes over and over, so I'll want to lose more weight to have a bigger range of clothes again.
2. It will keep me on track as it will be a constant reminder of WHY I am doing this.
3. It will get rid of laziness over the diet as I know if I put the weight back on I'll have nothing to wear.
4. It will stop me spending too much money on clothes as I'll be reminded that I don't plan on fitting in them for very long at all!

So, here goes!

Pledges for August

This August I will:
1) get as close to my 10% as possible.
2) Get as close to my 3rd silver 7 as possible.
3) maintain if not lose whilst in France.
4) Maintain if not lose whilst at Towersey Festival
5) Drink my 2L water EVERY day THROUGHOUT the day.
6) Not use escalators or Lifts unless I'm carrying huge amounts of luggage, or there's no other option(or I'm injured).
7) Not binge over my brother's and my dad's birthdays.

Do I hear IKEA?

Yes I do!
Me and one of my best friends decided it would be a fun day trip for us to go to she needed stuff for her new house at uni...I didn't especially NEED anything, but any excuse for a good bargainhunt and I'm there. I started out early so I could have a bit of a wander round the shops in Leeds. Most things I tried on didn't fit, or only just fitted whilst looking awful, but I really think I've turned over a new leaf because instead of crying and sulking and hating myself I just accepted it and thought 'Try again in a month's time...'. I'm really getting the hang of this positive thinking malarkey. Anyhow, I did end up buying a long black unitard/bodysuit type thing. I don't look good in it YET, buts it's simple and tight and will make for very accurate before and after photos, and I want to keep as accurate a record of this journey as I can. This time next year I WILL look good in that bodysuit- and you are my witnesses.
I also bought an awesome black beret, and then realised I'd essentially just got myself a mime costume. Here's hoping this years Voice and Body classes involve mime!
SOOOOOOOoooooooooo......
I then met up with my friend and we headed on over IKEAway, resisting the urge to take over the little playground thing outside it.For what must be the first time EVER I didn't even go in the restaurant, let alone stuff myself silly on elk-shaped pasta and weird cakes. I did buy WAY too much stuff but hey, everyone needs bedding and brightly coloured storage tins don't they!?
And then we reached the glorious and evilly tempting food shop....
And I did buy a lot of food. But I steered well clear of the ginger thin biscuits- I know I'm not in control enough to only eat one or two, I would finish the pack in a matter of minutes.
And instead of the daim dragees(which are GORGEOUS) I got a bag of the mini daim bars. No healthier, but they're individually wrapped and half a point each, so easy to keep track of and no excuses for over-indulging.
I also found blueberry, and rosehip soups. Which I think you can have hot or cold, but look like they'll be lovely either way, and very healthy- no fat in them at all! So i'm looking forward to those.
I'm fairly certain that carrying insanely heavy bags home again counts as excercise(must go down the gym before my pass expires...) but I'm not gonna point it just in case. I could do with saving all the points I can. I'm going to France next week and it's going to be a NIGHTMARE. Eating there as a vegetarian is hard enough, let alone when you're trying to cut back on the bread and cheese!
xxx

It must be magic...

I thought I'd only lose about half a pound this week at most- I've not been eating particularly healthily, a lot of snacking, and whilst I haven't gone over my weekly points, I have eaten right up to the limit of my activity points.
However, somehow, possibly by magic, I have lost 3 and a half pounds !
That brings me down to my 5% goal(past it even), AND means I've lost my first stone with WW!
So I'm really pleased :D
Todays WI results then:
WEIGHT:14st10lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:40.5 Inches
WAIST:35.5 Inches
HIPS:47 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:36.5(obese)

So I now weigh as much as...a vespa
moped and the average humans skin
(eww).






Or as much as a baby giraffe, an irish setter, a chihuahua and a guinea pig

I'm a human zoo!

Just made the WW halloumi burger recipe for tea. It crumbled like a crumble could only ever dream of crumbling. But I've heard other people complain it didn't hold together for them either, so I blame the recipe.
Now I'm gonna drink Bulmers light and watch Buffy....ahhhhhh....good times.

xxx

Down in the Doldrums...

• ...whatever they may be. So, today started really rather badly. Woke up late and then stayed in bed listening to my hypnosis tracks. All good and relaxing so far. Then I went downstairs and decided to check my emails. Some little tosspot has hacked my hotmail, and now I cant get into it. Either they can email me information on how to reset my password...to the email address I can;t access... or I can tell them who my childhood best friend was. Trouble is, I had about 5...all of whom could be written differently, with last names, without last names, capitalised etc. So it's a nightmare. Distracted myself with the G2 for about 5 minutes. Then off to town for THE BIG SHOP. Mum needed to get boring stuff so I had a look in Topshop and New Look while I was waiting. Big Sales...for Small people. Tried on a couple of things- the things that fit looked crap...and the things that didn't fit looked crapper. So that was a non-starter. Spent hours and hours(it felt) going round sainsburys with my little WW calculator trying to remember what was on the shopping list I so diligently made beforehand, and then forgot to bring along. Exciting Finds of the day:
  
• nakd cocoa locoa bars. 2 points and really chocolatey and yummy.
• a bright pink suitcase for my hols for a tenner!
• falafelafalfelfalfelfalel or falafel.

OMNOMNOMNOMNOM!

• 2L diet coke/diet cherry coke 2 for £2.

And...that was all fun and joyous. Went to the gym on the way home and cycled(whilst reading shopaholic and baby. Multitasker thy name is Florrie.) Earned myself 6 Activity points. Though I'm gonna try not to eat them... Had a nice tea of a GIANT salad with quorn mini scotch eggs, some chilli beans and a tortilla. Now I'm going to...try to get into my hotmail some more. Wish me luck. xxxxx

The Big Stuff.

Right...here it comes...
the measurements.
At Start of WW:
WEIGHT:15st10lb
ARMS:16.5 Inches
BUST:42.5 Inches
WAIST:37 Inches
HIPS:48 Inches
THIGHS:30.5 Inches
BMI:39(obese)

ouch...
(for honesty and accuracies sake throughout this journey- it's hard to measure arms,hips and thighs in the same place each week...)
So, to start with, I weighed 220 pounds. That's as much as a Vespa moped and a car tyre. That's scary.

Right now, 5 weeks later my measurements are:
WEIGHT:14st13.5lb(by tuesdays weigh in)
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:42. Inches
WAIST:36 Inches
HIPS:48 Inches
THIGHS:30 Inches
BMI:37.1(obese)

I've lost 10 and a half pounds, which is somewhere between an average gallon of paint, and an average household cat. Glad I'm not carrying that around with me anymore.
So now i weigh as much as a vespa moped, and a slightly underweight housecat.
Shame I'm allergic to cats- guess I'll have to lose that next.
So there's my improvement so far! I'm gonna update my measurement every tuesday on WI day. Exciting stuff, hope you can handle such a cliffhanger of a situation...

And so it begins.

Actually it began a few weeks back.
Or if you REALLY want to be pernickety it started days and weeks and months and years and cakes and biscuits and sandwiches ago.

Anyhow. I'm 20 years old, 5 foot 3 inches tall, and up until 5 and a half weeks ago I was 15 Stone 10 Pounds, the heaviest I have ever, and WILL ever be.
I have dieted and failed before. Or more accurately I have dieted and lost weight, then gained it all back with interest.
I've tried:
The GI diet
The GI Jeans Diet
The Little Black Dress Diet
The 7 Day Desperation Diet
A Veggie version of the Atkins Diet
Various plans ripped out of magazines.
and most successfully- The heartbreak diet ( Take one phenomenally happy and in love relationship, watch it self destruct around you whilst only eating oranges and hot cross buns for a week. You'll lose a stone but that's mainly from the heart being torn out of your chest.)

If any of those had worked in the long run I wouldn't be here now.
But clearly I am.
I started University(Contemporary Theatre and Performance thankyouverymuch) about a stone ago. They were the best of times, they were the...best of times some more. But I kept putting on yet more weight. I tried diets whilst I was there but they all went out the window when it came to drinking games and being able to eat whatever the hell I wanted whenever the hell I wanted because I was buying my own food for once.
My best friend is also a 'Big' girl, maybe a similar size to me, I really couldn't tell you. I am incapable of seeing myself at the size I really am. But I can see how big she is, and when your lecturers mix the two of you up because you clearly DO look alike, that is when it is time to CHANGE.

So coming home for the summer I knew that this summer could make or break me, weight loss wise. This may be the last long summer stretch of nothing-time I get in which to focus solely on changing my habits for the better. On my aunts recommendation my mum and I joined weight-watchers( she doesn't need to lose any weight but I think she knows I would have been too scared to go alone).

And for the first time ever, I'm losing weight slowly, but steadily, not feeling hungry, FINALLY getting the hang of portion sizes.
I've lost 10 and a half pounds so far, and I'm gonna keep right on losing.
I'm starting this blog so I can write what I feel about this journey- the things I maybe couldnt tell to someone face to face-and to keep me on track. Hopefully I can inspire some other inbetweenager to take control of their life, and their health, and make their world a happier place to be.

Let's you and me get thin together.