B.E.D. Recovery Review 5

My third review session in Step two of the 'Overcoming Binge-Eating' self-help program.

Step 2 is about establishing a regular eating pattern. I cannot trust my instincts and huger signals as they have become too distorted, so I need to create routine that I can trust. 3 planned meals a day plus 2 or three planned snacks.

1. Have I been monitoring?

Yes.

2.Can I improve my monitoring?

Try to do it nearer the time of eating still.

3. Are any patterns in my eating becoming obvious?

I can't keep snacky food in my room. Out of sight, out of mind. 

4. Am I weighing myself once a week?

Still having trouble resisting this. Had bad weigh in this week, gained 2.5lbs which took me up to 13 stone again. I didn't ever want to have to see that number again and it upset me a lot. This is turn made me anxious about not pointing food as I had said I would do. Instead of pointing i started using myfitnesspal yesterday to count calories. The novelty is making it easier to avoid eating and it hasn't been stressful so far as I have been at home without distraction. I don't know if this will be more stressful this weekend as I have distractions and have to be out of the house for long periods of time.

5. Each day am I planning regular meals and snacks?

there were a couple of days where this didn't happen, but yesterday I planned nearly everything in advance and it did work really well for me. I had my first fully binge-free day in ages. I need to do this more. 

6. Am I trying to restrict my eating to the day's meals and snacks?

There were a couple of very off days but yesterday I did WELL at this!

7.Am I skipping any of the meals and snacks?

Same as above. There was one day in particular where I binged all day and only had one planned meal, but yesterday was much better and Im feeling positive.

8.Are the gaps between my meals and snacks no longer than three to four hours?

On the binge days there were often long gaps between binges and meals because I felt sick and full.

9.Am I eating between my meals and snacks?

Only on the bingey days.

10. Am I getting back on track when things go wrong?

I have been noticeably writing days off as bad 'binge days' or good days. This is the all or nothing thinking that is talked about in the book and I need to address this.

11.Am I adjusting the timing of my meals and snacks to accomodate special situations?

As far as possible yes. 

12. Am I following the advice regarding self-induced vomiting and the misuse of laxatives and diuretics?

Yes. Haven't done it.

B.E.D Recovery Review 4

My second review session in Step two of the 'Overcoming Binge-Eating' self-help program.

Step 2 is about establishing a regular eating pattern. I cannot trust my instincts and huger signals as they have become too distorted, so I need to create routine that I can trust. 3 planned meals a day plus 2 or three planned snacks.

1. Have I been monitoring?

No. I tracked one day fairly fully, but then got progressively worse and didn't track at all yesterday.

2.Can I improve my monitoring?

Definitely. By doing it! I need to find ways to do it without feeling self conscious when outside of my home. I also need to NOT LET little blips throw me off track.

3. Are any patterns in my eating becoming obvious?

I'm suspecting that counting points in itself isn;t triggering for me, but when I've run out of, or am close to the end of my weekly points I am much more likely to panic, be anxious, binge and give up tracking. I need to take a break from counting points for a little bit. I'm still going to focus on eating healthy, but let my eating be entirely dictated by the timings of meals, rather than also limiting the points. It is more important right now to get my mind healthy than get thin, no matter what my gremlins say.

4. Am I weighing myself once a week?

I didn't weigh myself at my GF's house over the last couple of days as she doesn't have any scales, but once I was back home I started weighing again. This added to the fact that I found myself counting backwards from my current weight to my goal weight and imagining myself shrinking to calm anxiety about non-food related issues is setting off some major alarm bells. I've also noticed that the goal weight in my head keeps shrinking. When I started losing weight I thought 9st 6-7ish, then I started thinking 9st would be better. The other night the thought '8st 10lb would be just perfect' came into my head. I'm a bit frightened.

5. Each day am I planning regular meals and snacks?

This has slipped the last few days, largely because I was away from home and not actually in full control of when I would have meals. 

6. Am I trying to restrict my eating to the day's meals and snacks?

There have been some bingey moments, and it seems I don't take drinking alcohol into account...

7.Am I skipping any of the meals and snacks?

Trying not to, although the situation sometimes has meant I've had to shuffle things around.

8.Are the gaps between my meals and snacks no longer than three to four hours?

Yes. 

9.Am I eating between my meals and snacks?

I have done a few times. I need to stop this.

10. Am I getting back on track when things go wrong?

No. I've been spiralling downwards for a few days. Time to get back on track!

11.Am I adjusting the timing of my meals and snacks to accomodate special situations?

Sort of. But a I haven;t been setting very realistic timings anyway this has been a bit iffy. Note to self - I am not getting up at 8am, so there's no way I'm going to be eating breakfast then. REALISTIC schedules will be more helpful.

12. Am I following the advice regarding self-induced vomiting and the misuse of laxatives and diuretics?

Yes. Haven't done it.

Summary
Week Two
Step Two (monitoring + Regular Eating)
Binges: 6
Use of Vomiting/ Laxatives/ Diuretics: 0
Good Days (this week, days where I monitored consistently and accurately and did my best to stick to my planned schedule of eating, regardless of whether I binged): 5
Weight: 12st 11.5lbs (-2lbs)
Unusual circumstances, events which may effect eating habits: Spent the weekend at my GF's house, work meeting w/ cakes biscuits, babysitting.

I need to continue with step 2, and will attempt to follow this step without the addition of counting weight watchers points for a week.

B.E.D. Recovery Review 3

My first review session in Step two of the 'Overcoming Binge-Eating' self-help program.

Step 2 is about establishing a regular eating pattern. I cannot trust my instincts and huger signals as they have become too distorted, so I need to create routine that I can trust. 3 planned meals a day plus 2 or three planned snacks.

1. Have I been monitoring?

Largely, though I often forget to track drinks (water).

2.Can I improve my monitoring?

Numbers and quantities of foods may be useful in monitoring my hunger levels.

3. Are any patterns in my eating becoming obvious?

Same as before. Chocolate spread is dangerous.

4. Am I weighing myself once a week?

No. I've been weighing myself both days, and noticed how calm I felt after losing weight. I think this is a dangerous feeling to associate with my weight considering anxiety is a big cause of my binges. My relationship with weighing myself may be worse than I'd thought.

5. Each day am I planning regular meals and snacks?

I'm planning what times to eat, though not the foods themselves. I should maybe start doing this.

6. Am I trying to restrict my eating to the day's meals and snacks?

Yes. Apart from yesterday when I went completely off the rails following the disruption of my planned day, coupled with high anxiety and stress levels about jobhunting, househunting and my financial situation, plus a highly triggering environment for me (babysitting).

7.Am I skipping any of the meals and snacks?

Missed a snack one day as I slept in very late.

8.Are the gaps between my meals and snacks no longer than three to four hours?

Yes. They have often been rather short though as I have been sleeping in then cramming in breakfast, a morning snack and lunch within a few hours of each other. I either need to sort my sleeping patterns out or rethink this.

9.Am I eating between my meals and snacks?

Only yesterday when in 'binge' mode.

10. Am I getting back on track when things go wrong?

After a small chocolate binge yesterday afternoon I got back on track with a healthy tea, but then went off track again in the evening. Today I will try to stay on track.

11.Am I adjusting the timing of my meals and snacks to accomodate special situations?

I have been trying, although the idea of a 6 hour shift, without knowing if I'd get a break, and then a short window of time before babysitting threw me for a loop. This weekend is going to be all over the place so I shall try to plan ahead as best as possible.

12. Am I following the advice regarding self-induced vomiting and the misuse of laxatives and diuretics?

Yes. Haven't done it.

SMART thinking

This recovery thing is going fairly well.
Last night's weigh in showed a 2lb loss. After 8 weeks of gaining weight at a steady rate I was quite overwhelmed.
I suspect I'm still running on the novelty aspect but this step of the program is working well with getting me back on track with WW, as well as with my B.E.D.
I know there will be struggles to come, but for now I am feeling quietly confident.

This weekend will be a challenging one, I will be taken out of my routine, face several of my most triggering situations, and will be less able to count my points.
But I'm going to do my best to plan ahead, be smart about things, and keep in control.

B.E.D. Recovery Review 2

My second review session in Step one of the 'Overcoming Binge-Eating' self-help program.

1. Have I been monitoring?
Yes!

2. Can I improve my monitoring?
There's always room for improvement. It's not always easy for me to track when people are around, so I'm not always monitoring as soon as I've eaten, though i have done so as soon as I could. I need to remember to bracket my mealtimes.

3. Any obvious patterns?
Being alone is my biggest binge trigger, my binges almost always happen in total secrecy, and I need to find a way to deal with this. Being around other people increases my anxiety, and anxiety is also a very big trigger for me. This is a cycle I need to break.
Being in or near food shops is triggering for me. I think it will help for me to make and stick to shopping lists, and carry only the amount of money I need for the list with me.
I've found that if I eat slowly and savour my food I am less likely to class it as a binge, even if it is a 'danger' food.
I got unreasonably anxious seeing a pack of opened biscuits in the cupboard at my friends house, they are clearly a big danger food for me and it took a lot of willpower not to binge on them.

4. Are you weighing once a week?
After the sneaky peeks earlier in the week I hid my scales away and have been tempted to weigh (especially today, the day before W.I.) but have managed to resist. Out of sight, slightly more out of mind.


Other notes: My self-esteem and body image has been frighteningly bad this week and I have been crying a lot. I think getting back into excercising might help with this.


Summary
Week One
Step one (monitoring)
Binges: 5
Use of Vomiting/ Laxatives/ Diuretics: 1
Good Days (this week, days where I monitored consistently and accurately): 7
Weight: 12st 13.5lbs
Unusual circumstances, events which may effect eating habits: Spent the weekend at my GF's house.

As I have managed to follow step 1 for a week I am now moving onto step 2 of the program.
This involves me tracking as before, whilst also implementing set times of day for meals and snacks.

B.E.D. Recovery Review 1

In my last post I talked about my problems with Binge Eating and how I am starting a self-help recovery program for it.
This week I had to track everything I ate and drank NORMALLY (I.e. not attempting to diet or control my 'normal' eating patterns) along with whether or not I viewed it as a binge, if I used any methods to try and 'compensate' (Vomiting, laxatives, diuretics) and any comments or context. I have to review twice this week. So here is my first review.

1. Have I been monitoring?
Easy one. Yes I have.

2. Can I improve my monitoring?
There are few instances where I've just written 'salad'. Might be good to specify exactly what is going into my meals. I've been pretty good at monitoring as soon as possible after eating. I need to remember to bracket meals. I've done pretty well in writing comments.

3. Are any patterns in eating becoming obvious?
YES. Huge ones. All binges have happened in the evening and I have eaten reasonably well up til that point. As soon as people say they are leaving the house and I will be on my own my brain says 'binge'. Most binges happened in my bedroom apart from one when I knew everyone was out and would be for hours, and one while babysitting (also knew wouldn't be interrupted for hours). Being alone is clearly a big factor for me.
Foods binged on: Cheese, chocolate, sweets, crisps, bread and butter, veggie 'meat' products, nutella, syrup, biscuits, dried fruits.
Nearly all are high in sugar, carbs and/or fat.

4. Am I weighing myself once a week?
I'm counting my weight watchers weigh in as my official weekly weight, though I have had a couple of sneaky peeks this week. I need to hide my scales away.

I have to keep monitoring in the same way for the next few days, and then I can move on to the next section which I am excited about.

Biggest breakthrough so far: Getting the courage up to tell my weight watchers leader and my girlfriend about this. Both have been amazingly supportive. I was really scared of telling my GF, as she is a recovered anorexic and I was scared of triggering her, and how she would react but she's actually been amazing. She's given me some websites to look at, and suggested I might want to go to support groups with her. The thought of that terrifies me at the moment but I may work my way up to it. She's also made me see that if this has been going on since I was 9 (or thereabouts) and is affecting my emotions to the extent it is doing, then it is binge eating disorder. Just because I am going about my daily life roughly as usual doesn't mean I have to belittle this problem. This has become my daily life.

Recovery Plans

As my beloved followers out there may have noticed, I've been absent, and when I've been here I've been in a right old state.
My life has been topsy-turvy of late. Finishing Uni and moving back in with my parents, with no real space of my own, without a job, away from all my friends has been very hard and very stressful and my binge eating problems have reached epic proportions. I haven;t gone a single week since moving back home that I haven't gained weight and it is making me sad and angry and scared.
I got myself a book:

I've read it cover to cover. The first half talks about research into binge eating, and binge eating disorders, though it feels a little dated. It actually talks more about anorexia and bulimia than B.E.D. but it's interesting reading nevertheless. The second half is a self-help plan for those with binge eating problems, like me (and i suspect a few of you out there may recognise yourselves in it).

I'm staying with weight watchers, though I may be off plan for a little while, as an important part of the recovery process is monitoring how you eat 'naturally', so you can learn from it, which is what I'm currently doing. When I have enough understanding of what makes me do what I do then I will be able to hopefully start integrating weight watchers with my recovery plan.

I'll keep you posted.
If any of you have suffered with similar problems I would love to hear from you. While I don't think I can wholly class myself as having Binge Eating Disorder I am definitely borderline, and it is a very lonely and humiliating place to be.

I have a problem.

I binge.
I keep binging.
I've been binging for a very long time.
It makes me miserable.
I don't know why I do it, and I don;t know how to stop.
No diet is going to help until I know why I do what I do.
No healthy lifestyle plan is going to be stuck to until I am ready to be healthy.
I don't know what my problem is, I just know I have one.
I feel sick.
I feel sad.
I feel fat and alone and confused.
I don't know how to stop.
I'm stuck on a horrible carousel and I just want to get off, but I keep losing my footing.
This is a big cry for help.
If anyone has ANY idea what I can do to get myself under control, please help me.
I'm not happy.
I'm not healthy.
I'm not even hungry.
I just want to stop.

Too poor to be fat.

I've had a bit of an epiphany. A crossroads. A lightbulb moment.

I've just graduated (1st class BA Hons, and course valedictorian thankyouverymuch!). And I am skint. Utterly penniless (and flogging my possessions on ebay which I shall be linking you to!).
I'm paying about £20 a month to go to Weight Watchers.
And I have not been following the plan.
Not properly, with dedication, for any stretch of time, in TOO LONG.
And I can't afford it anymore. I can't afford to pay my membership only to see the numbers on the scales bounce back and forth between Fat and A Little Tiny Bit Less Fat.
I can't afford to be fat anymore.
If I am going to do this, I have to do it properly, to the letter, every week until I am at goal.
I AM going to do this. I Will do it properly, to the letter, every week until I am at goal.
I've made my mealplans and drawn up my shopping lists.
I've filled the fruitbowl. I've clipped on my pedometer.
I know it's not going to be easy, but it's got to be done, and there is simply no other option.
Fat is not an option.

*waves white flag*

I surrender.
I admit it, I've been awful.
Utterly dreadful.
I haven't been to a meeting in three weeks.
My tracking has been all over the place.
I've been a mess.
I've been having a seriously emotional time of late. Finishing uni has been incredibly sad and incredibly stressful.
Apart from a couple of blips I've probably actually been undereating (if I'm a bit emotional I tend to eat my feelings, If i'm extremely emotional I don't tend to eat. It's not healthy either way, but I'm at least starting to see what I do), so I don;t think weight-wise I'm too off track right now.
But I need to get into this again before another three weeks go by, and then another three, and so on until I'm back at big, fat square one again.

I think I'm going to be doing a lot more weight loss blogging in the near future as I've just started dating someone who is a recovering anorexic, and I don't want to talk too much about weight in front of them, so I'll be doing it here instead.
I also really need the support of this wonderful community because for the past few months I haven't been going about weight loss in a very healthy or productive fashion. The binges and secret eating were getting way, way out of control, and I was getting seriously addicted to those horrible, twisted 'thinspiration' sites.
I realised I was getting way in over my head and cut myself off from them completely, but ended off cutting myself off from all things weight loss related, including weight watchers, which is stupid because I know I can do it healthily and it works for me.
From now on it's the healthy way. And it's serious.
Graduation is in 5 and a half weeks, and I want to look GOOD.

Taking the scenic route

Hi everybody! I'M BACK!
Dissertation has been handed in so I have a bit of time to actually be me again...which means blogging is back on the cards.
I've been pretty absent from blogging, and pretty absent from the WW-plan as a whole if I'm brutally honest with myself. I've been tracking now and then but only on the good days, and the bingey days have been increasing in number to a scary degree.
The result of which has been an un-productive weight loss over these easter holidays. After the 5lb loss came a 4.5lb gain, then a half pound loss then a half pound gain...
All in all, not very good.

However, a very exciting thing happened when I came home this easter. I fit back into a lot of my old clothes. And I mean a LOT of them. I wrote about packing away too-small clothes in THIS post and am proud to say that of that list I am back into the tight rockabilly tattoo dress... In fact, at a recent party my camera with THIS picture on:

Im totally sucking in but STILL!

got passed around and exclaimed over, much to my EXCRUCIATING embarrassment. 

I'm also back into the green silk teadress - which I wore to my college leavers ball, AND the harlequin dress I wore to my high-school leavers ball!

Yes I made it myself. No it wasn't fancy dress. This was my attempt to replicate vivienne westwood with severely limited resources...

I've officially dropped a dress size and I'm back down to the size I was in college more or less, which is AMAZING.
The downside to this was that a lot of my favourite clothes are now too BIG and I've had to sell them, (apart from one or two items that I'm saving for before/after photos of course ; ) )
It's a bit weird suddenly dressing like college-me again, but I can't afford a whole new wardrobe when I have a perfectly good old one that's been neglected for several years!
I'm looking forward to a lot of 'ooh, is that new?', 'no, it's actually really old'... conversations happening back at uni.

So all in all, while I haven't lost a significant amount of weight over the last couple of months, I've clearly been doing something right because I am definitely smaller.
(I had a glorious time on Good Friday meeting up with a good friend of mine who I haven;t seen in person for about a year and a half due to university, who spent most of the day exclaiming over how much weight I'd lost and actually calling me SKINNY! I HAVE NEVER BEEN CALLED SKINNY IN MY LIFE!)

I have been seriously bingey lately and NEED to get in in check (and I have a whole massive post about binging planned) so for now I have made a meal plan which I am STICKING TO, and I am going back to tracking on paper rather than online.

I have to say, it feels good to be back.

p.s. as soon as I get my act together there are going to be proper photos of new-old wardrobe times!

On Top Of The World!

At this weeks weigh in I lost...



DRUM ROLL PLEASE!




FIVE POUNDS!
Which is the same as a chihuahua!

which means I get to cross off my mini goals of

1. My 3 stone mark! I HAVE NOW LOST OVER 3 STONE!

and

     2.MY FREAKING 20% THERE IS A FIFTH LESS OF ME IN THE WORLD!

And then I realised an amazing thing.

When I calculated all my mini-goals, I thought I was an inch shorter than I actually was,

so I am now ONE MEASLY TINY LITTLE POUND AWAY FROM NOT BEING OBESE ANYMORE!

ONE POUND!

I am SO excited for next week!

And as WELL as all this I had a wonderful night out last night, with an old friend I haven;t seen for a couple of months, who spent the whole night telling me how amazing I look, that I've lost so much weight, and that I look 'like a rake...but in a good way'

:D

Partly it's the magic of a good dress, but also- check out those collarbones! Hello little collar bones, LONG TIME NEVER SEEN!

I'm obsessed with them. Completely. Obsessed.

All in all.

Damn good week.

Maths

My graduation is in 16 weeks.

If I lose 1/2 a pound a week til graduation I will weigh 12st 4.5lbs

If I lose 1 pound a week til graduation I will weigh 11st 10.5lbs

If I lose 1 1/2 pounds a week til graduation I will weigh 11st 2.5lbs

If I lose 2 pounds a week til graduation I will weigh 10st 8.5lbs

If I lose 2 1/2 pounds a week til graduation I will weigh 10st 0.5lbs

If I lose 3 pounds a week til graduation I will weigh 9st 6lbs

If I lose 3 1/2 pounds a week til graduation I will weigh 8st 12.5lbs which is JUST BELOW MY GOAL WEIGHT!

I like maths when it makes me think I can get to goal :D


ps. I'm not actually planning on losing 3.5lbs a week for 16 weeks, I know that's not healthy! It's just nice to imagine...

Apologies

for the extended absence.
All my words are currently being shoehorned into my dissertation and I have not had time enough even for that, let alone blogging!
Normal service (and my sanity) will (hopefully) be resumed in a few weeks...

Jean Genie

Size 14 Super Skinny Jeans

DON'T MIND IF I DO!

That's all folks
:D

Whole New Realms of Possibility

At tonights W.I. i lost 2.5lbs, which brings my total to 41lbs lost so far!
And then I looked at my bracelet and saw that I now have 45.5lbs to go to reach my 50lbs target this year. And you know what, THAT ISN'T SCARY ANYMORE!
I know I can do it,
BECAUSE I'VE PRACTICALLY ALREADY DONE IT!
I'm a little overwhelmed right now.
I'm really going to do it.
I'm going to get to goal.
I'm going to be thin.

Mini-Goal Motivation

I took inspiration from a few other people on the WW message boards and got myself a (very cheap knock-off from amazon) pandora style bracelet, and I'm giving myself a charm for all my mini-goals (listed at the side over there:
<-----------------

I have an acorn at the start , when I get to goal I will have a tree, and inbetween I'm having a little rainbow apple for every silver seven,  a silvery charm for each 5% of my body weight, and number charms for how many pounds I have left to go in my 50lbs in 52 week challenge!

I like shiny things...

Words of Wisdom

If you've been reading weight loss blogs for a while you've probably come across the saying:

"If you always do what you always did, you'll always get what you always got."

Now that is a GREAT quote, very motivational (I have it written up above my desk)

But I just found a better one, the rather more 'go and get it' flipside to that quote.

"If you want something you've never had, then you need to do something you've never done."

My mind is a little bit blown.
For the next week I'm going to do something NEW - I'm going to go to bed a bit earlier, and get up half an hour early to work out.
What are YOU going to do new this week?

I got Bloglovin!

Follow my blog with bloglovin

So add me/follow me/whatever me.
Dissertation attempts: Black coffee, Braeburn apples, SF raspberry jelly.

Also, I learned how to julienne carrots.
So I julienned some carrots.
A lot of carrots.

BIRTHDAY!

BIRTHDAY!

That is all.

This week has been completely free on weight watchers.
I am currently on veggie sushi overload and have a wasabi headache.

BIRTHDAY!

Last Years Weight is Last Years Business

I had my first Weigh In of the year tonight, and i haven;t had a meeting since before christmas and I was feeling very ambivalent about the whole thing. On the one hand I was dreading the scales. I've been at my bingey worst, gorging on cake and crisps and GINGERBREAD, and so I knew there was little to no chance of me losing weight tonight. On the other hand I was SICK of my behaviour. I've been feeling greasy and bloated and sluggish, and I desperately wanted to get back on track.

Tonight I gained 2lbs.
2lbs is far from the end of the world.
Obviously it's not ideal.
But it's not the end of the world.

And I don't mind. That gain is the result of last years food, and last years habits.
This year I'm feeling very clean slatey.

I'm going to lose 50lbs this year.

Starting....



From....



NOW!


If you're a UK ww member join me here:
http://community.weightwatchers.co.uk/Challenges/ChallengePage.aspx?sid=1178018

Three posts in one day is excessive...

But I just had a MAJOR NSV!

In my first year at uni I bought a lucky bag off Lazy Oaf. One of the things I got in it was an AWESOME cartoon/geometric print belt. Which of course didn't fit. I literally could not even stretch it to the first notch.
Right now...

It's holding up my jeans :D

I might go and have a ceremonial burial for the old leather MANS belt I've been wearing for the last couple of years because it was the only belt that fit around me.

What a wonderful start to the year!

That New Years Blog Thing

2011's Resolutions - the big ones anyway (there's a lot of 'read this book' type little ones):

1: GET TO GOAL!
2: Graduate!
3: Make a real go of having my own theatre company!
4: Get out of my overdraft!


I've been feeling very inspired by the wonderful Leah who has lost 50lbs over the last year and so have decided to accept the challenge (not that it was issued as a challenge...but I'm taking it as one!).
An average of 1lb loss a week, with a week off for my birthday and a week off for xmas should have me 50lb lighter this time next year! That seems totally manageable. If you fancy joining me in this challenge join me here:
The Losing Year: 50lbs in 52 Weeks

Here is me now -

Breathing out

Sucking it in

Here's to seeing a lot less of me in 2011!

That Resolution Thing

Last years Resolutions:
1: This year I will get to goal - the exact weight will be decided nearer the time as I do not yet know what I will feel happiest at, but it will be within my healthy BMI range. 
FAIL:I got stuck in a massive plateau which has only started to shift since ProPoints started.
This year I have lost a grand total of 5 pounds. An average of 0.1 lb a week. Really I lost quite a lot of pounds put put them on again and took them off again for ages. Even so, rubbish. But on the plus side- I'm 5lbs lighter than this time last year!
2: I will complete at least the body test, if not training, on the Wii Fit Plus every day providing this is possible.
FAIL: Just...no. 3: I will sell the clothes I have shrunk out of on ebay, or donate them to charity, as soon as they dont fit me. I wont fit them again - I will not have them hanging around the house.
WIN: this basically happened as planned!4: I will pass my second year at uni with flying colours!
WIN: partly. I passed 2nd year with a 1st, but i JUST scraped it by .1 of a mark.5: I will keep procrastination to an absolute minimum as regards Uni work, exercise, and housework.
FAIL: Pfft. This was a stupid resolution, how can that even be quantified!?6: I will reduce my reliance on asthma inhalers.
WIN: Quit smoking, actually sorted out what inhalors need to be taken when.7: I will learn how to jog!
FAIL: Well, I sort of know the theory, but the practice continues to elude me.8: I will learn to budget and thus not live in my overdraft :s
FAIL: I am still most definately in my overdraft. But I have taken a bit more responsibility about it now and am getting a bit better at not buying stupid amounts of unnecessary stuff.9: I will be a good vegetarian and avoid all gelatine, animal rennet and other animal byproducts in food which I've become much to lazy about.
FAIL: On the gelatine front I was definately a bad vegetarian... I made a show with jelly and haribo in it...10: I will drink water. Lots of water. Everyday. No excuses.
FAIL: Still nowhere near enough.11: I will keep this blog up!
I guess posting this entry is a sort of WIN...though I have been pretty neglectful...


2011's resolutions will be posted in the morning...
Have a good one!