Towersey Trials!

I've got to be in 5 and a half hours(why am I not sleepy? WHY?) to head of to Towersey folk festival where I'll be working in the kids festival with my best mate. And though I'm a total folk novice I'm determined to have fun and NOT gain. I will LOSE.
As ever planning is the key(if I convince myself i need to carry my weeks food on a coach every week I'll be onto a winner...)and I'm bringing:
WW Bread
Sugar Free jam(cherry, yum)
little tins of WW baked beans
a variety of vegetable soups
tangerines
granola/fruit bars
vodka
diet coke.
Sorted.
Thats basically what I took to Latitude and i managed to lose there.
I'll be at Towersey for a week and i suspect running around like mad, PLUS theres ceilidhs every day!
NO EXCUSES!
and on the no excuse note(it was tonights meetings theme)
I've just looked up my local swimming baths back at uni, and they are LITERALLY just around the corner from my house. Not even 5 minutes walk.
I don't have any choice in the matter really. I'm swimming every day.

And on the off chance you're at Towersey, look out for the steward who needs to lose a few(or a few squared..whatever) pounds, that's me :D

No Alarms and No surprises...

My Kick-In-The-Pants Week

Stayed the Same this week.
No surprises there. I've been awful this week, one bad day led to another.
I stocked up on healthy/WW snacks, only to eat the lot( lesson learned: i cant keep too much junk around).
I did no excercise til I realised i needed to do some damage limitation.
And I only just managed to pull it back enough to avoid a gain.
Gutted though I am no have my first non-losing week, I think it's for the best.
If I'd acted like I did this week and still lost weight, that would have led to much worse behaviour in future. This has given me the kick in the pants I needed to get back on track.
So here,exactly the same, are this weeks stats:


WEIGHT:14st6.5lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:40 Inches
WAIST:35.5 Inches
HIPS:47 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:36(obese)

Stepping Stones

I actually walked across those very stepping stones today! New route to the old favourite walking place...
So, I'm all planned out to be back on track in no time.
Got myself a WW buddy(the wonderful blueberries :D) and we've both decided to aim for 1.5lb loss a week til xmas. Which should add up to about 2 stone! I would LOVE to be in the 12's by xmas, and I will.

Off to Towersey festival at the crack of dawn on wednesday, and I'll be working there so I've got no excuse for lazing about! Got my food all planned out to bring with me- WW bread and sugar free jam, Baked beans and soup, tangerines, Smirnoff and diet coke, and some cereal bar type things.
Sorted.
I Lost At Latitude.
I Will Lose At Towersey!
I just have to take it one step at a time...

Damage Limitation

I suspect that due to stupid amounts of binging and extreme laziness that this week the scales will show me my first gain.
And WI is tomorrow so its time for some MAJOR damage limitation.
As soon as I've had my breakfast(oats,simmed milk,fruit) I'm going for a big long walk. And damn these grey skies. Any snacking today will be on fruit and veg. I WILL drink my 2L of water. I will not add salt to anything(thats one really abd habit 5've been getting myself into lately.)
Any tips on getting back ont rack would be much appreciated.

Muffin Tops without the Muffins

Bought myself some new jeans today, still 18's, but from Dorothy Perkins as opposed to Evans super stretchy ones....
I actually DID get into size 16s, and they were fine on the legs, fine on the bum, they even did up....but were very muffiny on the top :(

So not quite there yet.
Also was much cheered by teh fact that they had massive amounts of WW foods in poundland!
Multipacks of crisps, cake bar things,biscuits,cooking sauces, jam....
Stocked up now.
Just need to not eat all of it at once.
OOOOOH which reminds me- need to defrost the tofu, sweet and sour stir fry for tea tomorrow :D

Omnomnom...

Victories

Continuation of the "get back on that wagon" plan.
I'm going to list all the little(and big) weight loss victories I've achieved so far- I don't want them to have all been in vain.

1. Lost 17.5lb. That's a stone and a quarter. That's equivalent to the weight of an average gallon of paint, and an average newborn(or a very painty baby in other words). That's Awesome!
2. I went on holiday to France and actually managed to lose half a pound. As a vegetarian. In France. With a breakfast buffet that included UNLIMITED BRIOCHE.
3. Whilst in France I didn't order a single pudding. And they're just about the only form of french food I actually like. I had one spoonful (ok 2 spoonful's...but still) of my dad's creme brulee. And that was it.
4. Also whilst in France I was on the fourth floor of the hotel. And I took the stairs. Everytime when I wasn't carrying my luggage or completely knackered from a day walking around everywhere I took the stairs. Up AND down.
   
5. I went to Latitude festival and lost weight. And they have doughnut stalls. FRESH SUGARY DOUGHNUTS. AND I DIDN'T GO ANYWHERE NEAR THEM!!!!!!
6. At Latitude festival my friend offered her chips to me to share. I took one. I ate it. I enjoyed it. I left it at just that one.
7. My jeans have gotten so loose I had to actually buy a belt.
8. My skin is improving massively- to the point where I actually notice what difference different foods make to my skin( I.e. in france when i was eating greasy cheesy stuff the spots returned...with a vengeance.)
9. I WENT SWIMMING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN TWO YEARS. And didn't feel self conscious. I'm still awful at swimming mind you.
10. I have actually gotten rid of clothes because they were too big for me. And I know I'm not going to fit back into them ever again.
    
11. I now crave vegetables more than ever. Which is a good thing.
12. I've tried new fruit and veg- like butternut squash( OMNOMNOM) and passion fruit (OMNOMNOM).
13. Gotten much better at making varied meals from scratch!
14. Can now recognise portion sizes fairly accurately.
15. I'm currently taking in one of my swing dresses which has gotten too big for me( when I first bought it I had to take it out as it was too small).
16. Positive comments from many people saying I look much better/the weight loss is noticeable.
    
17. Learning how to say NO THANK YOU.

That's all I can think of right now.
But it's a very good start I think.

Cinema Self-Sabotage

I don't get why I'm doing this to myself. Seriously. I already went over my points by a considerable amount yesterday and now I've done it AGAIN!
I bought fucking maltesers. Not even a small bag- a giant one. And ate them all. And I didn't even enjoy them. And that wasn't all I ate... by a long shot.
I can't even begin to fathom why I'm doing this to myself.
I can't even SEE the wagon anymore it's gone so far past the horizon since I fell off it.
I need some major tough love anytime soon.
At the cinema I saw "The Ugly Truth"(great film, loved it). And the truth is that what I'm doing to myself is ugly, very, very ugly.
As whats-his-face said in it,
"It's called a Stair-Master. Get on it. Get skinny."

I need to do some of that.
Now.

I AM CHAMPION!

SOMEHOW I have managed to lose half a pound! WITH HOLIDAY OF DOOM FOOD! It's magic. Actual magic. so now I'm:
WEIGHT:14st6.5lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:40 Inches
WAIST:35.5 Inches
HIPS:47 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:36(obese)
Slowly slowly getting there. I am DIETSNAIL.

The upside of the dentist...

Or How to be relentlessly optimistic about absolutely everything.

Off to the dentists in a minute to have (yet another) filling done. Which sucks. I really really hate dentists.
BUT tuesday is weigh-in day, and if I've got a numb mouth I reckon that'll put me off eating for the rest of the day so WI will be as light as possible, though that still probably means a gain considering france and all....
and on that note- new pic of me in france. Nowhere near skinny. but getting SLIGHTLY closer.

Home Again, Home Again...

Jiggity Jig. I ate WAY too much in France and now feel like a pig....
veggie food just doesn't exist on a non-greasy cheesy basis.
The peaches were to die for though.
OMNOMNOMFORPEACHES!

Going on Kickstart as of tomorrow morning to get myself back on track. And gyming it like mad.
It's scary just how quickly i fell off the wagon when I was thinking 'It's ok...I'm on holiday"
Just. Not. Going. To. Happen.
________________________
That's my line. I'm starting fresh.

Ouch Ouchie OUCH!

These boots aren't made for walking...but that's just what they'll do!

For some reason I seemed to think that my converse would be appropriate footwear for a 2 and a half hour hike. Through the woods. Over rocks. Lots of rocks.
My feet are now in SHREDS.
ouuuchhhhhh. pedicure time methinks.
Was a gorgeous walk though- lovely and sunny, and I remembered my water this time!
And I even managed to get into town in time to book my haircut for tomorrow morning- lovely 30's chicago style hair here I come!

*sigh*

I'm on a roll!

Put you off your food yet?

Another good week and I've no IDEA how I've done it, felt like i've been eating rubbish...
but now:
WEIGHT:14st7lb
ARMS:15 Inches
BUST:40 Inches
WAIST:35.5 Inches
HIPS:47 Inches
THIGHS:28 Inches
BMI:36(obese)

So I've lost 3 guinea pigs(please don;t call the RSPCA on me!)
or the weight on the average human brain!
And I now weigh as much as a Vespa Scooter and a human brain...
or 4 bales of hay and 3 guinea pigs
or a cinder block a newborn calf and the worlds largest ball of tape...
I could go on.

Coco avant...cocoa

If only I looked this good in a cut up man's suit...

My friend asked if I wanted to go to Leeds to see Coco avant Chanel(beautiful film), and i figured if i was gonna go to leeds I might as well do some shopping.
To really cement the motivational factor of the clothes, I've done what I always thought I'd never do and bought something to small so I can slim into it.
I have been lusting after this top forEVER, or for a few months at least, but I could only ever find it in a size 20- too big for my boobs, or a size 8-ridiculously small. Today I bought it in the size 8.
This time next year I will wear it.
And I will love it.

Also encountered a really hateful girl and her very camp friend in Miss Selfridge- she was rifling through a rack of skirts and saying- very loudly-
R.H.G: God they're all in FATTY sizes
V.C.F: suits you then
R.H.G:*hits him* yeah RIGHT. I'm a size 6.
*rifles some more*
R.H.G: I mean who is seriously a size(wait for it readers)........ 14!?!?!?!?!?
APPARENTLY SIZE 14 IS FAT!
It's not size 6 but seriously....'fatty sizes'?!?!?!?!
Oooooooh I wanted to hit her.

Hard.

Now I'm off to dye my hair.
If I can't be thin(yet) at least I'll be blonde(er)!

There she goes, my beautiful world...

I WILL fit back into this dress.

Done and Done. The clothes are PACKED *sob*.
My wardrobe looks thoroughly depleted(it all fits comfortably on one rail for a start). But I am confident this will work.
Looking through all the old clothes has reminded me of a lot of thinner happier memories, and I've rediscovered some GORGEOUS clothes I'd lost all hope of ever fitting into again.
And as such, I feel a hell of a lot more motivated.
I WILL fit in them.
If I lose just 1.5lbs a week then this time next year exactly, I should be at goal!
And I'll be wearing a whole new-old wardrobe :D
Clothes I'm especially looking forward to fitting into again:
-my tight rockabilly tattoo dress
-my green silk teadress
-my blue and white polkadot pencil skirt
- my FAVOURITE flowery teadress(nicest. dress.ever.)
-my Lia ink collectif dress
-My Moto jeans
-the perfect black top
-my chinese wrap dress
-my gothic lolita dress
-all my rockabilly stuff
AND EVERYTHING ELSE!
I'm so excited :p

Clothes Size Challenge

Considering one of my biggest motivations for losing weight is fitting better in my clothes, and being able to 'get away with' a wider range of styles, I've decided to try a little experiment.
I'm trying on every single item of clothing in my wardrobe(and trust me, there's a HELL of a lot in there).
Anything that's too big- unless it really is supposed to be baggy, - is going on eBay, or to a charity shop straight away. I will never fit into it again, I am determined.
Everything that's too small- whether its just slightly gaping at the buttons, not hanging quite right on me- or I physically can;t get into it- is being packed in bags, labeled by size.
Only the clothes which actually fit me right at THIS MOMENT in time are going back in the wardrobe.

Every week, on weigh in day,(providing I have time) I will try on the things in my wardrobe. If they've gotten too big, they're going.
I will also try on everything in the bag of the largest size(say if my bags range from size 8 to size 18 I will try everything in the size 18 bag). Anything that fits can go in the wardrobe.
Hopefully this will motivate me in several ways:

1. I get sick of wearing the same clothes over and over, so I'll want to lose more weight to have a bigger range of clothes again.
2. It will keep me on track as it will be a constant reminder of WHY I am doing this.
3. It will get rid of laziness over the diet as I know if I put the weight back on I'll have nothing to wear.
4. It will stop me spending too much money on clothes as I'll be reminded that I don't plan on fitting in them for very long at all!

So, here goes!

Pledges for August

This August I will:
1) get as close to my 10% as possible.
2) Get as close to my 3rd silver 7 as possible.
3) maintain if not lose whilst in France.
4) Maintain if not lose whilst at Towersey Festival
5) Drink my 2L water EVERY day THROUGHOUT the day.
6) Not use escalators or Lifts unless I'm carrying huge amounts of luggage, or there's no other option(or I'm injured).
7) Not binge over my brother's and my dad's birthdays.